The Great Nap Rebellion

We are in the middle of a crisis. To us. Mostly to me.

Phoebe is 19 months old. She is in the middle of the 18 month sleep regression. She and I both are exhausted.

Now, granted, she sleeps through the night. But she wakes up before dawn and is ready for the day. Where she was sleeping until 8 or 9 am, the last few days, she's gotten up before 7AM.

She was taking 2-3 hour naps. Now, she won't nap. Rather she'll lay down very peacefully for 30-45 minutes and then becomes hysterical. No amount of comforting will make her rest.

And oh the crankiness. She's exhausted. She makes this low moaning noise that grates my nerves.

And she's starving. I literally cannot fill her up.

Sleep regression is defined as:
Sleep Regression (Noun) Several points in an infant's early development, usually around 4, 8, and 18 months of age, in which the child develops sleeping difficulties, wakes frequently and sleeps fitfully, often in erratic spurts.
It also seems to be the time that everyone loses their ever-lovin' mind. Or maybe that's just me.

I don't function well on little sleep. I get cranky. I get anxious. When Phoebe went through other sleep regressions, I was able to crash when she crashed. She didn't sleep consistently through the night, but she took good naps during the day and I would follow the best advice ever and "sleep when she sleeps!" but this time? Not so much.

I've just got to adjust my own bedtime to make up for all this not sleeping.

THE KNOTS PRAYER

I love this!!

Dear God,

Please untie the knots
that are in my mind,
my heart and my life.
Remove the have nots,
the can nots and the do nots
that I have in my mind.

Erase the will nots,
may nots, and
might nots that find
a home in my heart.

Release me from the could nots,
would nots and should nots
that obstruct my life.

And most of all, dear God,
I ask that you remove from my mind
my heart and my life all of the am nots
that I have allowed to hold me back,
especially the thought
that I am not good enough.

Amen.