I AM STARVING

As discussed in a previous post, I'm following the Weigh Down Diet.

WD tries to get you to get to the heart of the matter (quite literally) by helping you to determine the difference between what the writer refers to as head hunger versus stomach hunger. Amazingly, I thought I knew the difference.

The first task in the book is to wait for hunger. Wait for REAL hunger... not "my mouth wants something to chew" or "I'm bored and I'm hungry" or "It's lunchtime - let's eat". I went through fasting last week until I felt true hunger.

MAN! There's a real difference. When I'm REALLY TRULY hungry, I feel almost nauseous. My stomach tightens.

So here I am. I've been waiting for hunger. And I AM STARVING. Suddenly, I feel the little twinge that indicates YES! I am HUNGRY! I have a couple of saltines with peanut butter on them... much better. I REALLY want to get control of this... I REALLY am tired of feeling like crap all the time. LORD please help me get control.

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Weight Loss A Go-Go

I started a new weight loss plan about 3 weeks ago.



No definites on how I'm doing because I vowed I wouldn't check the scale again or measure again until February.



I'm going through the Weigh Down program. It's a Christian bibically based plan with the premise of eating only when you're hungry and stopping eating when you're full. Yeah, I know it's a crazy plan and it sounds simple enough but the truth is that it's really hard.



I have no problems admitting that I have a problem with food; when I was in therapy, I realized that I've always used food as a drug - to make me feel better, to give me something to do when I'm bored, etc. My therapist pointed out that after a binge you feel so bad about binging or you feel so physically bad from all the food that you still don't have to think about what it is that IS bothering you.



Truthfully, I don't think too much about what it is that's really bothering me. Given the day, time, situation, etc it could be anything.

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This is my 45th time I've started a blog...

More about me: 36, fat, funny, irreverant. Married to a fabulous man for the past 6 (nearly 7 years) No kids yet. A rambunctious Pembroke Welsh Corgi named Indy. A yellow collared Macaw named Cosmo. I work in technical support for a large HR outsourcing company.

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